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April 07, 2011

Sum Of My Parts - A Memoir

Olga at Age 3 Olga at Age 3

The Sum of My Parts is a memoir I have been writing since last February. It's about how I developed Dissociative Identity Disorder, DID, discovered I had it and then details the healing process. In the book I go into more detail than I have in any of the trainings or presentations I have conducted. 

The story is hopeful in that it shows how so many kind people came into my life and connected with me in seemingly simple but meaningful ways. In order to bring out the importance of how such small acts of kindness could be so powerful I needed to tell about some of the abuse I suffered to lay a context for the resilience these people helped build in me. It also shows why the coping mechanism of DID was so effective for me to survive the terror of our home and still function well in school, with friends, sports and other healthy activities.

The story winds you through what it felt like to divide up and be divided. It illustrates how vulnerable I was as an adolescent and young adult because of the dissociation I had come to rely on to keep the truth of our home away from my consciousness and to not feel the fear and danger that always loomed.

Finally, I recount how I got through college, law school and reached a high level of success professionally. I married and felt safest I'd had ever felt. Soon thereafter started the panic attacks that led me to seek therapeutic help. This book details how I learned about the DID and healed from it. How I became more whole than I had ever been and happier than I thought I could.

This book takes my presentations and trainings and lets you into what you want to know - how I got from there to here. The book is currently scheduled for release in November 2011 by New Harbinger Press. If you would like to keep up with the latest updates sign up on this website for book updates. Or you can pre-order a signed copy of the book in the shop of this website. Amazon.com is also selling pre-orders.

3 comments for "Sum Of My Parts - A Memoir"

Sue Julian's Gravatar

Olga Looking forward to symbolically holding in my hands the pain, depth, insight, and richness of your experience of transformation and healing. Deep gratitude to you. Sue

Sue Julian wrote on May 10, 2011 at 02:39 PM
Novelette Pryce's Gravatar

Most powerful and enlightening work that I have experienced so far had this in my most recent training Child Protective Service. With deep gratitude for sharing. Novelette

Novelette Pryce wrote on September 30, 2011 at 04:25 PM
L. Lee Ramey's Gravatar

Hi Olga, I am 19 years old and I have DID with PTSD I was Diagnosed at the age of 15; I have been working through my past and learning more about myselves. I wanted to thank you for writing The Sum of My Parts, I read the book in two days, it was helpful to me to know I am not alone, My Adoptive mom and Biological sister also adopted by my Adoptive mom are very supportive, but knowing others are going through the healing process is very helpful, your story of how you came through all of what happened to you, gave me a reason to keep going I found a Physiatrist that specializes in DID treatment and I am going to start to see him soon. The Physiatrist I see now doesn’t know much about DID and is not that helpful. Maybe on day my dream will come true. I want to open a Ranch for people with DID and PTSD, my time working with horses was very helpful I connected best with the horses that came from bad situations we bonded. I would like to see the same for others who come my way. There is not much places in Nova Scotia that know DID and I would like to see some come. I think that this is God’s plan for me and I hope I can fulfil it. Thanks again for writing your story and how you came through it, to help others in similar situations.

L. Lee Ramey wrote on January 20, 2012 at 04:03 PM
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